The Tears Come Later

i broke up with him today
Well, how do you break up with someone you were never actually dating?
I wish i could always listen to myself
I always KNOW when they are not just that into me
But i keep pretending they are
Keep trying to make it work
Keep hanging on till it don't make sense any longer!
How sad

It started out as a simple day
Spent the night at his place
Went out for a meeting with him
And basically kicked back and relaxed
Till one act of thoughtlessness sent me bouncing off the walls
And i just had to react

Of course, we (me myself and i), knew that i was more upset about things that were unsaid
Like what are we dammit?!
Am i your girlfriend?
Or the girl you like to laugh with but won't commit to?
Fuck that
(Excuse my french)

So i tried to talk to him about it
But he said he doesnt want complications
Well, i am a complicated person
So that made things pretty clear
It was time to tell him we should just be friends

He took it well
TOO WELL

I knew he would
I hoped he wouldn't
That he would fight for me
Tell me he loved me and wanted to be with me
Hmmn...

Whom was i kidding

So he left and here i am blogging
I'm doing the bravado thing
Working so i don't think
But somewhere in the still of the night, they will come

As always
The tears come later!